The gagging
stopped. But ascending was Not An Option. Balaram was clear. We were in the midst of nothingness. There was
nowhere to go. Just that lone teahouse in Orsho – where we had just had lunch. A
kilometer away. Standing like a Lighthouse in an ocean of arid landscape. We
headed back there. The tears were still flowing. Anger, Frustration,
Disappointment, were all making their way out. And so were the Words. Which my
husband bore silently. My punching bag. For no fault of his.
We stayed
back at Orsho for the night. Just us, another couple from Germany, and the owners – a
matriarch and her 2 daughters. And the howling wind.
Why Me ?
I wondered ? Not fit enough ? But then I saw the uber-fit German man holed up
with us –for the exact same reason. AMS.
AMS is
like an evil witch. She seeks importance- a lot of it, and expects servility
and respect from everybody who enters Her domain in the High Mountains. The
higher you go, the more powerful She gets. Want to know Her power ? Try getting
to the Everest by helicopter. Open the helicopter door and walk out –happy you
have reached so high with no effort at all. You will drop dead instantly. AMS
would have taken you. Every trekker plans for Her arrival. But, it is not the
fattest one, nor the fittest one, She fingers. She picks Her targets randomly. Some,
She just scares a little, some She troubles a lot more, and just so you never
think She is benign- She keeps a few, never to return. She is the nightmare of
trekkers and rescue teams alike. We heard rescue helicopters above us several
times every day. Scurrying to take those hurt by Her to safer havens.
She shows
Her presence in many ways, and usually
warns you by just hurting you mildly, at first. Sometimes, if you show Her
respect, descend a little, and wait for Her to pass, She will forgive you. If
you ignore Her and decide to push further anyways, Be Warned. Do at your own
risk. AMS is vengeful.
At Orsho,
after gagging me for a while, She vanished. Vanquished, we mistakenly assumed. So
we decided we would continue our journey to Periche the next day. Besides, we
would have an extra day in Periche to get acclimatized- to lie low so She will
not trouble us again. We woke up early on Day 7 and made our way to Periche.
AMS did not return. It was bright,
sunny, cold and beautiful. We reached quickly- in a couple of hours.
Sitting
cozily next to a (currently dry) river bed, and tucked in a vale between 2
mountain ranges, sat Periche. I thought I had seen it all with Tengboche, but
Periche was something else. Windy. Austere. Stark. Simple. Breathtaking. With
the bluest of blue skies and the white mountain peaks rising behind it, Periche
in itself was worth this entire trip.
Periche
seemed larger than Tengboche, in both size and imagination. Periche had a small
medical facility, a helipad for emergency evacuations, a research centre, some shops and the best teahouse the entire
trail had to offer. It was also, obviously,
chillier(daytime temperature with wind-chill was below freezing) and windier here than any other place on the
trail yet. Stone walls lined every teahouse- every plot of land in this
village. To break the wind’s fall, in the absence of trees, apparently.
We headed
to our tea-house The Himalayan Hotel. The minute I entered, I knew I was in a
mountain palace. With its wooden, glass topped, sundeck; carpeted hallways;
western toilets; hot water baths- this was teahouse heaven. We reached the
hotel when the last batch of trekkers had left and the next batch had not yet
arrived. We had the hotel to ourselves, almost. We showered in hot water,
washed clothes, relaxed in the sun room, ordered from their bakery, borrowed
books from the small library, and checked email on the owner’s laptop. This was
the first day it felt like normal vacations usually do. Comfortable, Cozy Warm.
And we had 2 full days of this-Day 7 and Day 8. Pure Indulgence.
But
checking mail and checking the news after several days brought its own downsides.
I got sucked into the world back home. The flood situation seemed to have worsened.
Some friends had left town to escape the worst. The water could come to Sukhumvit any day now. And there was the risk
of the airport been shut off. I reconfirmed the situation on the millionaire
owner’s private TV. I wanted to get back home to my baby
immediately. I had seen enough, done enough. I wanted to go home. Now. I felt
guilty, torn, like I was abdicating my responsibility. But Ajit wanted to go
on. We were so near now- just 2 days away- that Ajit wanted to complete what he
started. Race horse with Blinders!
We
decided to leave the decision to my husband’s parents. We made them an urgent
call. Despite their nervousness (as I later found out) – they urged us to
continue. I considered the option of letting Ajit complete, while I stayed on
at Periche. We would save time as he was faster. But my Mind whispered a taunt
‘ You want to give up, don’t you?’.
‘I Do
Not’ I screamed back. ‘Why would I, after everything I have been through?’ ‘Maybe
you are afraid’ He countered. He was right. I was. Afraid and nervous. But I
could not let Him know. So I lied back ‘No I am Not’.
Afraid or
not, I had come too far to stop now. We
had travelled around 40 k.ms already ( distance estimates all from the WWW,
taken right now), and ascended 1.5 k.ms vertically over the last one week. We
only had 2 more night stops : Lobuche(4940), and then one at Gorak Shep (5164)
with a quick day-trip to Kala Patthar. So Close. And AMS had been Vanquished. I got ready for Day 9.
But She
lay there quietly, waiting for the final battle. AMS.
2 comments:
Beautifully written once again. You have described it very well. Shweta. Extremely proud of you. It needed to be written and lived by all of us. Just as you are reliving it. It was no mean feat, for both of you. You did what ...not many do. Love
Thanks G. Mucho appreciated.
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